While preparing for this upcoming 30 day challenge I have been thinking a lot about my past successful challenge. It seems like forever ago. Thinking back- the circumstances were a lot easier in some ways and a lot harder in other ways. It was easier because we were living in a very health conscious area. Pasadena had awesome places that were very Paleo friendly and we were surrounded by fellow Paleo fanatics. Most of our friends ate Paleo and we all ordered crazy together at restaurants. We helped each other and talked about recipes. It was a really easy atmosphere to eat Paleo. What was more difficult was my schedule. I had class all day (an hour and a half away) twice a week and an internship twice a week. I was in the car a lot. I did not have a lot of time to cook. I had to be very organized. Right now- we are living in the south (not as health conscious) with no friends here who do Paleo BUT I am currently unemployed (much to my disdain) and literally have ALL DAY to cook and be Paleo crazy. It seems so much harder though! When you have ALL DAY and nothing to do- you end up doing nothing. My baby-dog Chipper isn't even here (I don't wanna talk about it). So in my head I imagine myself in a cute apron cooking huge breakfasts for Matt before work, changing into my workout clothes and running for an hour, coming home and cleaning my house, getting back to the apron and experimenting with new recipes, working out again, blogging every day and being like super CrossFit Paleo Cyborg Aubrey. Skinny, with a six pack and enough new recipes to fill a book. But what is he reality? It's 11:25, I haven't ate, I am in my pajamas, sitting on the couch, watching What Not to Wear, 10 pounds heavier, and bored out of my mind. It is only a matter of time until I end up in a Moo-moo with a tub of cookie dough unless I change this pattern immediately. So Monday is the day. I need to embrace this time I have and make it useful, because I have been wasting it. When you have nothing to do for some reason it is really hard for me to actually do something! When my goal was decorating and unpacking- I was like a machine. I decorated and unpacked until this place was done. I was the decorating-unpacking queen. But once I was finished I slowly began slipping into this funk. Until I found myself here. So I guess what I have learned about myself is I NEED goals. I NEED something to work towards. I get stuck when I don't have something. I am going to think over these goals this weekend. But until I get my life back together- let's talk Meatloaf. Blue Cheese Meatloaf to be exact. It is Paleo minus the wonderful blue cheese- so if you are in a challenge- Take the cheese out! 

Hey...so time for some honesty. Why have I not been blogging? Well the answer is because I have done a TERRIBLE job of eating paleo. Guys- it has been so hard to get back on track and I have FINALLY figured out why. Well- last night after I downed some chips and cheese dip I decided to figure out what the hell has been going on with me. Why can't I seem to get back on track? Why can't I just eat Paleo? I have the recipes. I have MORE than enough time. I have the know how..I have done it before!! Like what the heck?? I have been using "the stress of the move" excuse LONG enough. It is time to get off my ass and get healthy again. The reason I have been doing so poorly is so simple I can't believe I did not see it earlier. I have been "deciding" to do 30 day challenges like the night before, eating Paleo for two days, and failing. Over and over. It just  happened last night. I have not TRULY taken the time and decided. I have not set concrete goals. I have not blogged about it- and I think it is because deep down I knew I would fail and didn't want to write about it. But you know what something amazing has been happening. Friends and family members have been following my example. I have had lots of people text me and say, "Hey I am doing that Paleo thing, can I have any advice?" And it is the absolute best feeling. BUT guess what? I feel like such a hypocrite writing people about all the wonders of Paleo and saying, "Oh and no wheat, or grain, or dairy" as I stuff my face with a cheeseburger and drink a soda. Like really? How twisted is that. Lol. So I am talking to my hubby when he arrives home from work and I am shooting for our 30 Day to start on August 27th. That gives me 5 days or so to start getting ready. To write my thoughts about what's been up with me and to make some HEALTH goals. I think GOALS will be the most important aspect of this challenge. I will talk more about that later- but right now I have to run. But thank you for anyone who follows. And if anyone ever wants to start a challenge feel free to contact me. Just know- I am human. I am not perfect. I am not the best Paleo eater ever, and never will be. But I am honest and I will struggle right there with you!!